Currently Listening Breakaway By Kelly Clarkson see related

Gosh I rarely add posts.  Sorry guys.  Not much is going on.  Bradley and I just celebrated 13 months!

I have a question for you guys though and I want a lot of replies back...

If you got an all-paid honeymoon trip for a month where would you go and why? You can name off a couple of places if you want.  Just sounded like a fun question so I though I'd ask it.

Currently Reading The Rise of Christianity: How the Obscure, Marginal, Jesus Movement Became the Dominant Religious Force .... By Rodney Stark see related

So I'm most likely switching my major.  I've made a sad choice: I love my classes. LOVE THEM.  What kind of psycho loves their classes?  I think the hardest decision is to choose between what you love and what is the best for you.  Cause I know for a fact it is the best for me to change my major, perhaps not being a teacher, but to something not associated with weight gain, weight loss, or food.

Will I be suspended in an apathetic life?  Will I want more or will I be at peace, content in knowing that there was a perfect job made for Haley Powell, that I couldn't handle?  Perhaps the biggest question:  am I dropping out of what God wants me to do, just because I find it too hard for me emotionally?

Currently Listening An Evening With By Shane & Shane see related

I was reading the Bible and just kinda came up with something. 

Look at Genesis 3: 16.  I particularly like the part that says "Your desire will be for your husband, and he will rule over you." 

Okay, so I'm definitely not going to talk about the 'he will rule over you' part. Instead, I really noticed the "Your desire will be for your husband."  I want to know the literal translation from Hebrew for this verse. 

I know that in my own life, I realize that yes, I definitely desire my future husband.  But this seems to be a curse.  The context for this is that Adam and Eve just took the fruit from the tree... God is punishing Eve.  Does that make sense?  Punish her by making her desire her husband.  Any girl would hopefully totally understand this.  Heck yes, it is a pain.  I hate being so overly emotional and crying whenever I get in a fight with my boyfriend.  Truth is, I am totally in love with him.  That sounds sweet doesn't it? Well, its defintely bittersweet. I hate that I expect too much of him.  I hate that I always want to be around him.  I hate that I cry (not like I didn't before) watching the Notebook cause I've somehow turned Noah into Brad. 

Single women can relate to this too.  Before I started dating I remember being so obsessed with finding that one true love. In my own opinion, this was part of our curse.

Wow, it does not seem like a month since I last wrote. Sorry guys.

I have been reading 1 Samuel recently and it just reminds me how good of friends I have.  Take Jonathan.  His father, King Saul, wants to kill David, and yet Jonathan said to David:  "Go in peace, for we have sworn friendship with each other in the name of the Lord, saying, 'The Lord is my witness between you and me, and between your descendants and my descendants forever.' "  (1 Samuel 20: 42)  Even better, a couple of verses before that, when Jonathan knows that David must run away, "they kissed each other and wept together."   That's some hard-core brotherly love.  I think of myself and if my dad were plotting to kill Maggie or Anna.  Gosh that'd hurt. Especially, you guys know how my daddy has control over me.  Id almost die! I love them so much!  This is how Jonathan feels and I love it. 

This is the hard part... "And Jonathan had David reaffirm his oath out of love for him, because he loved him as he loved himself."  (1 Samuel 20:17).  Does anyone else feel soooooo selfish sometimes?  I know I am so selfish. I want to feel that way about everyone though, ya know?  I want to be able to say that I love everyone as I love myself. 

Gosh the book of Samuel has some good stuff, doesnt it

Haley

Currently Reading Captivating : Unveiling the Mystery of a Woman's Soul By John Eldredge, Stasi Eldredge see related

"I will find you.  No matter how long it takes, no matter how far--I will find you."
-Nathaniel to Cora in Last of the Mohicans. 

I want to be romanced; I want to be beautiful; I want to be captivating. 

Does anyone else wake up in the morning--every morning--and turn around and walk off? Lol.  Does anyone else wonder if they could be any less attractive?  Does anyone else hate being a woman?

I'm starting to read this book called "Captivating."  Gosh, let's just say, as Maggie would, it's wicked awesome.   I've come to learn that a guy can call you beautiful all he wants and you take nothing of it in.  Bradley calls me beautiful all the time, but its kinda hard to believe him when I look in the mirror after running with sweat dropping from my nose (sorry about the vivid detail). 

What we need to realize is we are beautiful.  We automatically assume that if guys aren't paying attention to us, we must be hideous.  Here is the truth:  "The King is enthralled by your beauty."  (Psalm 45:11).  Wow, enthralled, that's a pretty nice word, kinda has a ring to it. 

Bethany Dillon's lyrics shout out my feelings sometimes:

I want to be beautiful
And make you stand in awe
Look inside my heart
And be amazed
I want to hear you say
Who I am is quite enough
I just want to be worthy of love
And beautiful.

Isn't that the truth, though?  Don't you want to be beautiful?  This isn't talking about the same, beauty, though.  This is beauty that doesn't change with an extra pimple on your epidermis (I love human anatomy).  This isn't beauty that changes when you can't fit in that pair of jeans you look real sexy in.  This is the beauty of someone in love.  Think of a bride.  Have you ever seen an ugly one?  Ha.  Hopefully not.  Why not?  She is in love!  That's the kinda love I want--love to my Heavenly Father.  Then, I will be beautiful and feel beautiful.